#I know we talked abt this issue with the starters as well

[driftingballoons]

Do you have a particular affinity for reptile pokemon?

Had to consult a pokemon list to check, and it looks like the answer is yeah! I like snakes/lizards irl, and there’s a bunch of great designs, particularly from gens 3-7 :3

[rollercoasterwords]

ok here's the essay re: "realisitc?? they're literally wizards!!"

upon further reflection (25 min voicenote 2 twin, 1 conversation w 2 friends) i think i have. managed 2 organize + articulate my thoughts.

obligatory disclaimer: this literally does not matter i'm talking about hp fanfiction in 2023 this is not a serious issue beyond being like. kind of annoying. unfortunately i just enjoy writing abt stupid fandom discourse hopefully going back 2 school will cure me of the incessant need 2 write essays for fun but who knows. anyway me writing this essay is not me saying this is a huge or important issue i just like 2 talk <3

anyway! the ~discourse~ i've been noticing in the marauders fandom, which from my pov has had sort of an uptick recently (although who knows if that's objectively true--maybe i've just stumbled across more of it. from where i'm sitting, though, it seems like it's become more of a hot topic in recent months) generally goes as follows:

person a: omg ugh i hate that in [x fic] [x character] has/is/does [x flaw] :(

person b: oh well [x character] having/being/doing [x flaw] makes the story more realistic

person a: UM they're literally wizards at a magic school lol....who cares if it's realistic....

and the reason this both interests + annoys me is that i think. giving person a the benefit of the doubt + assuming they aren't being purposely obtuse (bc in that case we're just talking abt trolls), it demonstrates such a gap in understanding. bc the thing person a is fighting w that response is literally a strawman

the strawman:

saying "um they're literally wizards" is only a "gotcha" moment if it's pointing out an inconsistency in person b's thinking. it is only pointing out an inconsistency if, when person b says "it makes it more realistic," we take that to mean that person b is saying "a story is better if it more closely matches our own reality." in that case, saying "they're wizards!!!" points out an inconsistency, bc obviously characters being wizards does not match reality. gotcha!!!

the problem is that that isn't what person b is saying. so by responding "they're wizards" as if that's some sort of "gotcha" moment, person a is misinterpreting person b's argument, constructing a strawman that nobody is actually arguing, and then tearing down that strawman with a pithy little sarcastic comment that positions them as soooo much more reasonable than person b.

so what is person b actually saying?

the problem is that saying "[x character] having [x flaw] makes a story more realistic" is not an argument about the story being better, it's an explanation for why someone would write the story that way.

another disclaimer - some "person b"s in this situation might, in fact, be using "it's more realistic" to try and argue that a story being more realistic makes the story better; however, that is not a position i'm going to be defending here. i think any argument that roots itself in a so-called "objective" measure of what makes a piece of art better or worse is a non-starter, and in that case i think person b and person a are perhaps both misguided in different ways.

but what's happening from person b's pov is - person a asks "why would anyone write [x character] with [x flaw]?" person b tries to answer that question by explaining: well, it makes the story more realistic. the implication here is -- a story being more realistic is a personal preference that some people are going to prefer; people write + read stories for different reasons. this is the reason that i enjoy the story, personally. that's it!

and the thing is, "realistic" in the context of a fantasy story does not mean "matches real life exactly." in the context of fantasy, "realistic" refers, in my mind, to two things:

1. cohesive internal logic

even within a fantasy universe, there are going to be structured societies, rules, laws of natures, etc. what makes a fantasy story more realistic is not how closely it adheres to real-life structures + rules, but how closely it adheres to its own established structures + rules - its own internal logic.

for example: in my fantasy world, fairies can fly but mermaids can't. then, suddenly, without explanation, i write a scene where a mermaid can fly. this makes the story less realistic, in that it breaks from its own internal logic, and stretches the limits of readers' abilities to suspend their disbelief. like - we've already sort of "agreed" to suspend disbelief about fairies + mermaids existing, because that's just the established norm of the story, but as readers we are still looking to follow some internal logic. oftentimes, when people are complaining about fantasy stories being more or less realistic, they are referring to the story's own internal logic.

this means if someone is writing hp fanfic set in a canon universe, working in the established canon universe where certain biases + flaws exist, it makes the fic more realistic to adhere to that internal logic. obviously, a fic writer can choose to change that internal logic and say, for example, "in my story the wizarding world doesn't have homophobia, and that's an established societal norm that is part of the story's internal logic." that's fine! it's just a matter of personal choice whether that's the story that somebody wants to write or not, y'know?

2. reflection on real life

the other aspect of "realism" that i think people are referring to when they talk about a fantasy story being more or less "realistic" is the ways in which that story does reflect actual reality. like--fantasy stories don't exist in a vaccuum. many writers use fantasy stories to reflect realities from actual life; things like prejudice or oppression or war, etc. placing these real-life issues into a fantastical setting allows a new lens through which to think about them, pushing us to examine them from different angles.

for example - take k.a. applegate's animorphs series. it is, in many ways, completely unrealistic, in that it's about kids who can turn into animals fighting off an alien invasion. but k.a. applegate wrote the books to demonstrate the utter horror and devastation of war, and much of the subject matter reflects real-life wartime situations. a kid who only hears about war through the news or through action movies where there's a clear good guy and bad guy, a clear right and wrong, might find it easy to disregard the horror. but when applegate took those real-life situations and placed them into the fantastical setting of animorphs, she's providing an age-appropriate way for children to understand that no, war is not an action movie, it's a horror story.

this is why "realism" in fantasy matters to people. some writers are using fantasy not as pure escapism, but as a way to explore real-life issues through a different lens, one that may allow people to empathize with an issue in a way they normally don't. obviously, some people are just writing fantasy for fun escapism -- and that's fine! there's space for both types of stories to exist simultaneously; what doesn't make sense is assuming that just because somebody engages with media differently from you, there must be something wrong with it.

anyway. the conclusion to all this i suppose is that i think if you genuinely do not understand why someone would write a character a certain way, rather than assuming the worst or assuming there's no good reason it's generally better to like. actually ask and listen to the answer people are giving u + try to understand where they're coming from. not everyone is going to want to read the same types of stories, and somebody writing a character w certain flaws shouldn't feel like a personal attack, bc fandom is a self-curated experience where u literally don't need 2 read or write anything u don't want to. The End

[ye-local-simp]

Ohoho I came here on the 4th, just before matchups closed hehe, can I ask for a twst matchup?

I'm an ISTP-T and an aquarius for starters, dunno if that'll help or not but eh

I tend to ramble abt things I enjoy, like oc making and fanfictions. I'm very cynical and think the world is a give and take sorta thing, no exceptions. I treat my OCs as my children (even though I give them shit ton of trauma but we don't talk abt that) anyways-

I like money, like, a lot of and swimming, I like swimming.

I have daddy and mommy issues and will make 'went to go get the milk' joke's, I enjoy both dark and sexual humor. I'm a lazy person and constantly feel lethargic (mom says it's my fault for that 🤷🏻‍♀️) I like to sing when I'm alone or with ppl I trust/like.

My significant other has to want children as well bc I really wanna be a mother when I get married so there's that, hope it narrows it down a bit

My love language is physical affection, and words of affirmation (giving) and gift recieving and words of affirmation (recieving) I sometimes playfully hit/bap ppl I'm close to as a sign of affection but sometimes I underestimate my strength and hurt them which makes me feel like shit.

Oh and I like purple 😁

You are matched with...

Idia!!!

-He also rambles sometimes so he knows that he can never judge you for that.

-He doesn't judge you for making fanfics and Oc designs.

-He will even help you animate the OC.

-He also has issues with his parents so he can definitely relate to later issues you have, so you both just have each other.

-He especially doesn't want your potential future children to suffer parents issues.

-On the topic of children, he doesn't mind having children with you, it isn't like it's impossible.

-Like; there isn't trouble affording it or taking care of them but he doesnt want to be seen as a wimp by his own Kids.

-And also being ready to be a father, a son is way different than a little brother like Ortho.

-But im the end he wants the best for the child.

[pure-kirarin]

Slow & Steady [P2] [Sabo x f!reader] (+18)

Genre : Romance - Smut - Bestfriends to lovers General warnings : Alcohol consumption - Dark themes - Swearing - S m u t - possessiveness - Mention of ex-relationships - jealousy

A/N : This is really different from my usual writing style but I am experimenting. Please tell me your thoughts and don’t hesitate to ask to be added to the tag list :) AO3 : https://archiveofourown.org/works/31877203?view_full_work=true

In the last chapter --  «-Enough playing now, you're going to sleep. -B-but ! This wasn't what I asked for....You're really a coward after all...You virgin... » He carried you to his room, putting you on the bed and sitting next to you. «-I'd love to prove you wrong. However, it would be better if you were in a state where you'd be able to recall how good I am. If you want me to fuck you this badly then maybe ask me when you're sober.

Part I - Part II

Part II  -Yeah yeah...Pff..You're no fun Sabo. Things were finally getting interesting ! »

He smiled seeing that you were now calmer. You started to yawn and bury your face in his pillow. He loved to see you getting so comfortable in his room. He really needed a cold shower after your little show.  -Goodnight (Y/N). I'll sleep on the couch. You can get comfortable. -Are you crazyy ? You gonna leave me alone like this ? Let's sleep together~ -Come on (Y/N), you're a big girl. You could sleep alone for one night, would you ? Translation : I don't want to spend the whole night with a semi. And you're dangerously flirty, and I have wanted you for years and now I have to abstain.

-Pleaaaase. You said looking at him with puppy eyes. He rolled his eyes placing a hand in his hair. God.damn.it.

You won again. Like every time. * * *  You opened your eyes hardly next day, feeling something hard against your thigh. You looked at the ceiling

Oh...I am not in my room...Where the fuck am I ?

you turn around only to discover the embodiment of Adonis to your side. A light beam was lighting up Sabo's face. He looked like an angel as his beauty couldn't be that of a human.

Was he always this handsome ?

You didn't know, in fact, you have never had the occasion to wake up in his bed. Wait, in his bed ? This realization came slowly as your head was still foggy from yesterday's consumption.

You looked down, the thing that was pressing against your leg was indeed :

his thing.

You frowned, blushed, pulled away, put a hand on your lips repressing an internal scream, all of this in around three seconds. You then tried to calm down, telling yourself that it was very normal for a man to experience this kind of morning unconviniences, and that Sabo was a man, after all. Even if  you have always seen him as a bestfriend, he was still a man that is capable of physical attraction.

Now that this internal monologue was done with, you felt a bit calmer, but that didn't answer your question. You got out of bed, trying to recall what happened after going in the bar. And it came back. All of it. Without any mercy for your feelings.

You wanted the ground to swallow you whole. Your only wish was to disappear which meant : calling Nami. You headed out of the house, not even having the courage to face your bestfriend.

« Namiiiii -Uh ? What's the matter ? -I fucked up. I fucked up really bad. -Oh yeah ? Tell me about it. -Wait, why do you seem excited ? -O-oh I'm not excited. Come on tell me. What else could you have possibly done ? -I asked Sabo to fuck me. -Wait what ? You could hear Vivi ask Nami about what happened and her answering « She asked Sabo to fuck her ». -Nami ! Don't go on telling everyone about this. I'm on my way. -For starters, Vivi isn't « everyone », she's my girlfriend. And I'm here waiting for you to tell me what happened. -Wait, I'll come at your place. This can't be discussed over the phone. »

You hung up on her. Ten minutes later, you were at her place. Extremely confused. Nami was painting her nails bright red on the bed while Vivi was sitting comfortably on a chair. You let your whole body weight fall on a lounge pug, tourmented.  «-So tell me how you and Sabo ended up fucking. She emphasized the last word in a way that made you almost choke on air.  -We didn't actually. Nami and Vivi both sighed in a synchronized « Ah » of disappointment. -So hmm...I don't remember clearly. I was really drunk-- well that you're aware of and...And Sabo didn't want to leave me alone so we went to his place. Ace was at Thatch's so we were alone. We hugged and he comforted me. Then I started teasing him, and I don't know what I was thinking, but I kissed him, and then I asked him to fuck me. -Wow that escalated quickly. Said Nami as she continued painting her nails.

-Well, I was heartbroken, I needed something, someone, and he was there, and you know Sabo, he's a good guy ! I don't know what's worse, the fact that I asked him to fuck me or the fact that he said no.

-Oh god I'm so so sorry

- Nami please don't make things worse for me.

-No offense, but you're so dense. Sabo has always been into you. Do you want him, or do you not ? I know that going right into a relationship after a breakup is a bad idea. But honestly it's worth giving it a shot. He's a really good guy. Try dating someone nice for once.

-I don't know, he has something unsettling about him. Like « almost too good to be true » you know ? Added Vivi.

-Ohhh~ I see. Honestly, I always thought that he was a bit prude and hella vanilla. I mean, yes, he's my best friend. But he has never talked about girls to me or about sexual stuff. So I just assumed that. I never thought that he'd be packin' like that. You said as you popped a lollipop in your mouth.

-Ah ? Was it really that impressive ? asked Nami, genuinely curious.

-Yeah. On a scale from 0 to doflamingo he's a solid eight point seventy five. (*)

-Oh gosh. I understand why you're so worked up now.

-That's really...precise. Added Vivi, a bit horrified.

(*) [ The dear reader might need this clarification ; Doflamingo was Law's uncle, he sometimes came to pick him up after uni with his luxurious lamborghini. He wore extremely tight pants that left little to the imagination. And he was most known among your clique for having a nine incher. It was a running joke wether to know if Law got his uncle's genes. Needless to say that this joke wasn't to Law's taste. Now back to our adorable Y/N. ]

-So. I really don't know what to do. I am still heartbroken. -And horny. Added the ginger. -Yeah, that too. I'm afraid of ruining our friendship. -Listen dear, said Nami as she was closing the nail polish bottle, if you're not going for it, someone else would. And trust me, that girl Koala is upping her game. She's going to steal him right in front of your eyes, just like this - and she snapped her fingers. -Oh, and then, you can forget about being « best friends ». Said Vivi adding fuel to the fire. -Yeah, once he's gonna start dating, he won't have too much time for you-- and then, that Koala girl, my god, she seems extremely possessive ! -No way, your voice was detached, trying to act is if you weren't worried, Sabo has never dated any girl before.- -Yes but he seems to get along with that girl. And to be honest, she's kinda cute.

-Nami ! Vivi pinched her forearm playfully, pretending to be jealous.

-That hurt ! And don't be jealous, you know that you're my only one~

-Hmm...I prefer that. Vivi laughed. You started caughing reclaiming for their attention.

-Attention please ! We're discussing my dick-appointment here.

-Jesus you're really annoying, (Y/N), just go for it already.

-How much did he pay you to tell me this huh ?

-What ? He didn't pay me ! You're just always getting your heart broken. I'm just trying to be a good friend.

-Say that you are trying to get rid of her~ Jokes Vivi.

-Vivi, don't expose me like this- Nami plays along while laughing.

-I hate you girls ! You say as you throw a pillow on Nami. The ginger starts complaining that you messed her Nail polish, and the whole scene metamorphosed into a pillow fight.

* * *

You spent the whole day with the girls, chit-chatting about boys and girls and playing stupid games. You felt way more comfortable now, less ashamed. However, you were surprised because you didn't get a message from your bestfriend. You wondered wether he was mad at you, it wasn't in his habits.

You decided to message Ace [click for conversation] [ (Y/N) : Heyy amigo is Sabo ok ? Did he tell u smth abt yesterday ? Ace : Ouch, your hurting my feelings, </3 Only talking to me to ask about my brother~ Yea hes okay why tho ? (Y/N) : Ooo kay. He's home ? Ace : He is. Why don't u directly text him ? (Y/N) : Don't tell him I asked. Btw I didn't forget about those 10 bucks you « borrowed » from me. Give it back.] He didn't answer. You sighed and decided to go see Sabo to settle things down. It was the first time that you were embarrassed to see your best friend. You dressed up in a black skirt and t shirt. You didn't usually pay attention to your looks when you went to hang out at Sabo's, but you were really stressed out and what the girls have said about Koala made you scared of losing him. After all, you had some abandonment issues. You had to settle this down once and forever. You arrived at the guy's place, it was an apartment not so far from your own student flat. You knocked on the door and Ace opened : -Ohhh, (Y/N), he whistles, lookin' like a girl today huh ? -What are you implying you dumbass ? Where's Sabo ? -He's in his room with Koala.- -Wait what ? Koala ? What is she doing here ? Ace raised an eyebrow then said amused ; -I don't know, go ask him yourself. -You're useless as usual. -Always so sweet. You on your period or something ? -I didn't forget about my twenty bucks by the way. -I said I'm goin' to pay you back alright ? Now go talk to Sabo. You and Ace were always teasing each other in a brotherly way, but in reality, he really cared for you, it was just your usual way of communication. But it was true that knowing that Koala was in Sabo's room put you in a bad mood. You knocked on the door with a knot in your stomach. Did they start dating ? Was Sabo interested in her ? These ideas were torturing you. But why did you care anyways ? It was none of your business. He could date whoever he wants. You opened the door but there was only Sabo relaxing on his bed, still fully clothed. « - Sabo ?-Oh, (Y/N), what brings you here ? -Why ? Do I need a reason to see my best friend ? He sits on bed looking at you. He doesn't fail to notice your cute outfit, it was different from your usual sweatpants and hoodies, the way it complemented your figure was almost too much for him. Just that sight was driving him insane, but his face didn't betray his emotions, like always, he acted friendly, not an ounce of lust in his dark ebony eyes. You took place next to him. He smelled good, you thought. The same fresh minty smell as last time. Did he always smell this good ? -(Y/N) ?Huh ? Is everything okay ? His voice seemed concerned.He cared for you. And you had those stupid immature and posessive thoughts. Get a grip of yourself, (Y/N), you thought. -Oh yea-- wasn't Koala here ? Ace told me you were with her.

You tried so hard to act like you didn't care, but he knew you like the back of his hand. But still, he played along. -Hmm..Yes. She just left. I was going out as well. He says with a sweet smile, looking at his watch. You couldn't help but make a disappointed face. -But Sabo I wanted to - I'm really sorry (Y/N), let's talk later. He ruffles your hair and you close your eyes as he does so. You felt stressed out. What happened exactly ? You felt intimidated in his presence for the first time. You wanted him to stay and talk this out. It was a bit awkward for you now. You never thought too much. As he was going out of the room you held the fabric of his coat tight in your hand ; -Sabo- -Hum ? Need me to drop you somewhere ? -N-no. You let his sleeve go, realizing what you have just done, I'll stay a bit then go back home. Don't worry about me. -Alright then. See you later ? -Yeah. See ya. ]

You looked at Sabo go away and you followed him shortly after. Meanwhile Ace was sitting on the couch and watching some movies. You went back home and was quite tormented. It wasn't the right time to worry as you had your assignments and studies to deal with. On one hand, you didn't even have the time to think of your ex boyfriend and his cheating but on the other, you felt like you were let down by Sabo. But why ? He didn't do anything. He just found himself a new friend and a potential new girlfriend.

He didn't even talk about her, but why where you so upset by him meeting her ? After all, he had the right to date just like you always did.

A few days have passed and you didn't get the chance to talk to Sabo. Your exams were getting closer and closer and you didn't feel ready.

Usually, Sabo would help you with your assignments but you were too scared to ask. You realized how much you relied on him and how he has been always there for you.

Who were you exactly to him ?

Maybe you took him for granted.

As you were on your bed looking at the ceiling and trying to collect every drop of motivation in your system to study, you heard your phone ring. It was Sabo's ringtone ! ----- Tag list : @vemuabhi @chloe-abbacchio @mwls-garden @soanywaysistartedsimping If you wanna get tagged just ask for it :)

[whomst-art-thou-whomst-whomst]

Texts from the Lost Tomb part 6.1

🎶 Back on the bullshit I never got off🎶

Is this another unnecessary story arc?? With three sections??

Yes.

Wushanju Crew Chat

Wang Meng: You know, I’m someone who appreciates consistency in my day. My life is pleasant, very few issues indeed if you ignore the big ones. And yet. Yet here we are. With unresolved messes at the end of a day.

Wang Pangzi: SOMETHIN YOU NEED TO SAY MARY POPPINS

Wang Meng: We need to talk about Huo Daofu and the glittery bead curtain.

Wang Pangzi: MY FAVE TEEN WIZARD SERIES

Wu Xie: did you turn on that suggested word thingy lol

What glittery bead curtain

Wang Meng: I closed the shop at 6:00pm this evening on the dot. I locked all of the doors in and out of the shop very carefully, especially in light of recent events. The hall leading to the back office was empty. I filed the day’s paperwork, updated and sent emails, and then spent an extra hour organizing receipts and dusting. When I came back out, there were glittery iridescent bead curtains over the front entrance to the shop.

What could this mean?

Wu Xie: uh that you need to spend less time at work?

Wang Pangzi: LOOKS LIKE WE GOT ONE FOR THE DETECTIVES. THE MYSTERY OF THE BEDAZZLED THRESHOLD COMMENCES

Wu Xie: I think we can be relatively secure in thinking a glittery bead curtain isn’t a hostile threat

Wang Pangzi: SAYS YOU

I REMEMBER YE OLDE EXPLORATION TIMES HOW FAST THINGS GOT FURIOUS

BEANBAG CHAIRS SET AFLAME AND LEFT ON DOORSTEPS AS A WARNING

GLITTERBOMBS FOR DAYS

PANIC AT THE DISCO

Wang Meng: Ugh, forget it. I should have just taken them down, regardless of who they belong to.

Zhang Qiling: They are not mine.

Wang Pangzi: A BOLD STATEMENT COMING FROM OUR PRIME SUSPECT

SOMEONE QUICK GO DRAW CHALK AROUND THE DOORWAY TO MARK THE SCENE OF THE CRIME

Wang Meng: Do we know anyone who *would* sneak in and put those up? For whatever reason, legal or not? Even as a joke?

Wang Pangzi: ARE YOU SERIOUSLY ASKING WHETHER WE KNOW ANYONE WHO IS CHAOTIC, AN OUTLAW, A PRANKSTER AND/OR SNEAKS INTO PLACES

BECAUSE THAT WOULD MEAN OUR SUSPECT LIST IS LITERALLY EVERYONE WE KNOW EXCEPT FOR YOU.

Wu Xie: okay let’s think about this; for starters, I didn’t break into my own shop

Wang Meng: You would be in danger of doing some work in the process, that’s true.

Wang Pangzi: LOL

Wu Xie: ANYWAY let’s keep going. For example, Xiao Ge would only break in somewhere for a good reason. Xiao Ge, did you do this?

Zhang Qiling: No.

Wu Xie: okay who’s next

Wang Pangzi: YOU REALLY MISSED YOUR CALLING IN INTERROGATION TIANZHEN

REALLY PUT THE SCREWS TO HIM

IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE;)

Zhang Qiling: How can we be certain *you* didn’t do it?

Wang Meng: Admittedly that was my guess, too.

Wang Pangzi: WOW I SEE HOW IT IS

BLAME PANGZI AS USUAL

ANYWAY HOW DOES HUO DAOFU FIT INTO THIS

Wu Xie: Oh yeah him! Oops I got distracted

Wang Pangzi: UR ENTIRE HISTORY IN A NUTSHELL

Wu Xie: Ugh fuck off

Wang Meng what abt Huo Daofu??

Zhang Qiling: ?

Wu Xie: oh sorry xiaoge I didn’t realize you wouldn’t have spent much time around him last year

He and I go way back

Zhang Qiling: Way back where?

Babysitters Club Chat

Wang Pangzi: I CANNOT BELIEVE HE IS BUYING YOUR INNOCENT ACT

IF YOU EVER TURN TO EVIL WE ARE FUCKED

Zhang Qiling: ?

Wang Pangzi: YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHO HUO DAOFU IS

YOU WERE EXTREMELY POLITE AND BORDERLINE FRIENDLY TOWARDS HIM

Zhang Qiling: I wanted him to feel welcome. I wanted to be sure he understands he has a place here. A specific place.

Wang Pangzi: FOR A SILENT GUY YOU ARE A MASTER AT SUBTLE POWER PLAYS IM ALL TINGLY

LMAO THE IDEA OF WU XIE LEAVING YOU FOR HUO DAOFU IS HILARIOUS AND ALSO NOPE

Zhang Qiling: Rationally, I understand that.

Main Chat

Wang Meng: Huo Daofu is coming for the weekend—didn’t Wu Xie tell you? Wu Xie asked me to check in a week ahead so we could start getting ready for his arrival

Wu Xie: oh yeah I did do that

Wang Meng: Fortunately I know you and so I already went ahead and took care of everything.

Re: the trip

He made a deal with Wu Xie’s doctor that he would do periodic checkups on him here at Wushanju

Bc Wu Xie hates being in the hospital

And frankly the hospital hates him too

Wang Pangzi: FAMILIARITY BREEDS CONTEMPT LOL

I FORGOT HUO DAOFU WAS DOING THAT

A VERY CHIVALROUS GESTURE

WOULDNT YOU SAY

XIOAGE

Zhang Qiling: Is it safe for him to be here with a criminal loose on the premises?

Wu Xie: Right, back to the curtain! Let’s focus on the curtain, hmm?

Wang Pangzi: I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS WEEKEND.

ALSO WE CAN RULE OUT XIAO BAI FOR THE CURTAIN SHE JUST SENT A SELFIE FROM NORWAY COVERED IN GREEN SLIME WITH ZERO CONTEXT, UR PROTEGE INDEED

Wu Xie: okay but who else would do something so oddly charming yet illegal and—wait.

Snake Eyes Chat

Wu Xie: hey, Glasses hasn’t been in touch lately right?

Li Cu: uh nope

Unless u count the outdated memes

Why, is money or Xie Yuchen missing

Or is this curtain related, I saw Wang Meng’s tweet

Wu Xie: haha no nothing to worry about really

(I mean maybe? but who knows)

Wang Meng is probably just getting a little paranoid in his old age

Li Cu: better than getting reckless and stupid as hell in ur old age

Wu Xie: …hey:(

Unknown Number: Li Cu, we discussed this.

Wu Xie: ????????

Li Cu: *sigh* fine, reckless and stupid as heck

Unknown Number: …close enough.

Wu Xie: EXCUSE who is that

Madame, Sir, Non-Binary Tree Spirit, etc—whomst the fuck

Are you

Li Cu is underage FYI

So Im staying on this chat

Li Cu: okay first of all, it’s not like that

Second of all I’m literally not underage I s2g

u threw the embarrassing surprise bday party, okay so u should remember

And C, that’s my counselor and I invited her. She wanted to meet u and I knew u wouldn’t agree to a visit so I added her to our chat

we have been discussing u

Wu Xie: Oh wow!!!!!!!

What a surprise:)

hi so nice to meet you:)

Main Chat:

Wu Xie: RED FUCKING ALERT

FUCK THE CURTAIN FUCK THE VISIT

IVE BEEN TRICKED INTO FAMILY THERAPY BY A SMUG TEENAGER WHO TEXTS UNKNOWN NUMBERS

Wang Meng: I assume that means something to someone here?

Not my problem? Good.

Wang Pangzi: AHAHAHA GOD I LOVE LI CU

HES LIKE ADORABLE KARMA FOR ALL THE SHIT YOUVE PUT ME THROUGH

IM RAISING HIS ALLOWANCE

Wu Xie: wait i give him an allowance

has he been collecting on two allowances??

Zhang Qiling: Three. I knew about both of yours.

Snake Eyes Chat

Wu Xie: so uh may I ask your name?

Unknown Number: you can call me Ms. Lee.

Now, if you’re comfortable talking in this format, why don’t you tell me how things have been going?

Wu Xie: oh everything is normal and fine and safe as usual, why do you ask:)

Li Cu: I heard about ur necklace thing. nice of you to NOT mention it.

another dangerous adventure. again. prick.

Ur lucky your cool boyfriend cares about you so much or you’d have already died like ten years ago

Wu Xie: lol try twenty years ago

Li Cu: That isn’t funny.

Unknown Number: …What?

Wu Xie: shit ur right, okay that was a bit glib, my apologies.

…I use humor as a coping mechanism?

Unknown Number: and Li Cu, how do you feel about that?

Li Cu: he doesn’t even know what that phrase means

He doesn’t cope, like ever

In fact

It’s kind of why we met

Which is a funny story in retrospect tbh

Wu Xie: haha what are you talking about sweetie hahaha need I remind you of certain anecdotes that could idk send me to jail maybe lmao

Unknown Number: …You know, perhaps an in-person meeting might be more effective?

Wu Xie: haha such a nice idea but why

Main Chat

Wu Xie: If I go to jail, I’ll have to create alliances for protection, right, that’s how it works on tv

Who do we know who spends time in jail

Other than Hei Yangjing, he’s only ever there for like 12 hours and i suspect he just gets himself arrested bc he enjoys the breaking out process

Also how’s the curtain case coming along

Zhang Qiling: Has someone threatened you?

Wu Xie: well not yet but soon I’m sure

Wang Pangzi: WHERE WAS THIS PARANOIA WHEN WE GOT TAKEN TO THE TEA HOUSE HUH

Snake Eyes Minus Your Fucking Therapist Chat

Li Cu: okay how tf did u pull off spy and undercover shit

u are sus as hell

Wu Xie: damn son is it pick on Wu Xie night

I missed the flyers or I would’ve invited my uncles

Also re: the curtain it’s been mostly solved

Li Cu: I’m not your son, idiot.

Wu Xie: …oh. Sorry, sorry, you’re right, bad choice of words, haha

Forget i said anything

Delete this chat even

Li Cu: shit I meant

Legally, biologically, I meant—

shit

…I turn into an asshole as a coping mechanism?

Wu Xie: oh that’s all okay! I have to go do something else now let me know if you need anything okay kid thanks!

Li Cu: goddamn it calm down who’s the kid here

lemme organize my thoughts so I can articulate my emotions fuckin healthily or w/e

Ugh maybe for like one afternoon we could go to Ms. Lee together? She knows how to word stuff

Wu Xie: uh…okay.

Li Cu: Anyway you don’t need to worry abt jail

As if you would survive prison for one day you’d piss off half the place in like an hour or less

I gave Ms. Lee the heavily edited version of the desert highway to hell roadtrip and i discussed it more in terms of like “nightmarish but still wouldn’t take any of it back”

Well maybe the sand

that shit was everywhere

Wu Xie: oh kiddo. It’s fine, really…You don’t have to explain yourself to me.

Li Cu: no, no it’s just

I do technically have a dad

who is an asshole. Being a son doesn’t really mean shit to me bc it sucked.

So you need to stop backing down just cuz ur guilty abt stuff. I’m really really glad ur not my dad in a good way. Do u get what I mean there

Where’s the mafia widower I followed into hell, huh

Wu Xie: Ur a good kid, despite my influence. I’m really glad you have someone to talk to after everything I…after everything. Wow this talking through feelings thing is kind of weird but nice ur right

Jfc no wonder it took me and xiaoge so long to—you know what, we won’t get into that

Li Cu: ew tmi

Also re: this week’s recent necklace fuckery

I moved my stuff here, I live here now

So you can’t die anymore

Or else…Idk I don’t have a threat planned

anyways abt the curtain

Wu Xie: oh my god, kid…kid you have no idea

I am in tears.

Li Cu: see this is why I can’t be nice to you I can sense the hallmark channel from here

Ugh don’t be sad in ur room that’s dumb

Go hug Pangzi or something

Maybe delete this chat

Or the curtain thing

Focus on the curtain thing

Just stfu and go away

Wu Xie: <3 screenshotting this <3

Li Cu: I take back everything I said. This is why Xiao Ge sleeps on the roof. I hope the ghosts of the Wangs put up that curtain to strangle you somehow. Go die in a stupid way, it’ll suit you.

Wu Xie: lol don’t worry I’m not gonna embarrass you with it or anything

Main Chat

Wu Xie: omg guys look how cute my kid is *sending screenshot*

Wang Pangzi: I MEAN

HE IS WISHING YOU DEATH

BUT SURE

CUTE I GUESS

Wu Xie: no but read the whole thing:):):)

Zhang Qiling: It is indeed very hard to remain angry with you. And you are welcome to join me on the roof.

Wang Pangzi: UH NOPE

NOT WHENI HAD TO BLEACH THE COUNTER IN THE KITCHEN

DONT TRAUMATIZE THE EARLY BIRDS THEYRE ALREADY FREAKED OUT BY U YA HOODIE CRYPTID

Wu Xie: ok true but babe ur like a sexy cryptid

Wang Meng: so, are we just accepting that there is a glittery curtain of unknown origin, and Huo Daofu is going to have to see it while he’s waiting for you at Wushanju bc you’re going to family therapy?

Wu Xie: right

Wang Pangzi: SHOULDA TAKEN EARLY RETIREMENT HUH

Wang Meng: I’m going to go dust something.

Unnamed Chat:

Unknown number: so the curtain…

Unknown number 2: yep, not my best work but I kinda panicked last minute u know

Unknown number: what is in the water at Wushanju that makes everyone dumb and attractive

Unknown number 2: relax they’ll figure it out

[skunkes]

Ok ok ok so a tip 4 entering a discord convo in text chat. Ppl r talking abt something. U kno a cool fact. U say the cool fact. They ask u about it . Profit. Same w. Personal anecdotes about things. Like “omg have u guys seen the new Pokémon starters” and u like the duck so you’d be like “yes I like the duck. I love duck Pokémon” and maybe they’ll ask “what’s ur favorite duck Pokémon” and there we go

See i have the opposite mindset bc ive witnessed ppl start convos like this (in a server someone said they hadnt played pokemon so whats yalls fave game or where shld they start etc) and i was jst like why wld i respond if theres about to be 15 other ppl answering em jshfiektnsjd like how exactly does that lead to friendship...idk im jst not experienced in this sort of thing ^_^

Edit: i will also say every server ive been in so far everyone seemed insufferable from what i viewed when lurking JFUWIRKSJF so i cldnt even single out who was an Okay Person to contribute convo to...i thnk thats also my issue. Like maybe the kind of person that wld be SUPER active in a server for [x thing i enjoy i jst randomly joined server for to check it out] maybe wldnt be someone id be friends with ywkim. Akin to when people who never leave the house are like well i just know my future partner is also out there not leaving the house

EDIT: actually thats not true the ppl on the neopets server are epic

[whenfatecollides]

Hi ! I've been getting into Dreamcatcher lately since everyone's been saying if you're a lesbian you're gonna like dreamcatcher, and i do ! i was just wondering from someone who obvs knows them better, do you think they're naturally so close to each other or it could be a bit more... fan service stuff bc I'm always worried about getting into groups who just queerbait all the time, idk how to say this and im not trying to attack DC but there's been a lot of talk abt it in kpop lately

I get where you’re coming from, but with time you’ll see that they’re genuinely close

dc have gone through a lot as a group (some of the members have been together for abt 8/9 years now), specially the ex-minx members (jiu, sua, siyeon, yoohyeon, dami) who had to overcome an unsuccessful debut and decide to stick together despite a rough start. there’s a lot in the member’s own story that makes you wonder if there really isn’t a force in the world out there who brought them together because so much happened, to some members more than others, that literally put them right on the path to become a dreamcatcher member. it just had to be the seven of them. 

for starters, yoohyeon auditioned for a few companies and mbk accepted her. she went the first day and quit that same day because of how she was treated by the staff. she said that from that experience she wanted to quit on the idea of becoming an idol, but she really loved to dance and sing. which led her to meet sua at a dance competition before they auditioned for hfe. sua had been training to become an idol since 2012 and hfe was the one company who accepted her (I can’t imagine sleeping on that much talent). this led them to debut together and even become roomates.

siyeon had a close songwriter friend who introduced her to the company, she auditioned and got in. similarly, jiu’s vocal teacher referred her to the company, she auditioned and got in as well. as for dami she had wanted to become an idol since elementary school, one day she participated in an open audition at her school and hfe called her for an audition.

with gahyeon, she actually went through a few companies before landing on hfe. she was an fnc traineed for a while, she got in both yg and sm, but left since they weren’t going to debut a group any time soon. similar to dami she participated in an open audition at her school and she got called for an audition.

and handong had some interest in kpop when she was in high school, but when she got the chance to go to korea for university her dad made her promise she wouldn’t try to become an idol, it was literally The condition for her to go to korea, she wasn’t meant to audition according to her parents will. but one of her uni teachers told her about hfe’s audition and she just went for it anyway asdkjhs (her relationship with her parents is fine now). it was just meant to be.

they’ve also mentioned quite a few times that they didn’t just instantly click with each other like that (some members having a cold impression of sua at first, siyeon admitting it took her quite some time to get close with handong, jiu saying she was skeptical about the adittion of handong and gahyeon but soon realised they made the group stronger), they worked on their relationship over time and they wanted to make things work with each other which itself is really important and shows the kind of loving and supportive enviroment they wanted to build for each other (I go a little bit more in depth about their overall story in this post). they’ve made sure to build a really great sense of teamwork with each other since the beginning, from the fact that they had about 2/3 months to prepare for dc’s debut (minx still performed on october 2016 and dc debuted january 2017) alone, they really had to make a conscious choice about it all. honestly one of the things that makes me sure that dc are close is that they don’t hide the negative feelings they sometimes have towards each other (which are normal), they've spoken a few times about silly things that they’ve argued about and have even mentioned that they don’t get the other members involved in the quarrels they’re having with another member to not create more drama than necessary. but you can really see that they love and take of each other in the little things too, not just the (sometimes) fanservice. and by this I mean things like, sua calling handong in the middle of her vlive to go get food for her, dami letting yoohyeon sleep in her bed and going to the living room because she didn’t want to wake her up, siyeon falling asleep on top of yoohyeon and yoohyeon not having the heart to wake her up as well, among many many many things.

but truly they’ve gone through a lot of hardships over the years, including having a member be away and unable to participate in comebacks and group schedules for a whole year (not because of health issues or anything like that, but because of the covid situation that made it impossible for her to fly back to korea), and they got out of that situation being even more appreciative of that member when it could’ve easily been something that could have made them turn on each other. it was a situation that brought them even closer and appreciative of one another. they really want to be on this path together.

as for the queerbaiting bit, I’ve made posts about this before and as I’ve said, it doesn’t matter whether or not it’s fanservice because at the end of the day they’re respectful and caring, and they’re only normalising same sex attraction. they never make you feel gross for that attraction either, they’ve never pulled a ‘no home though’ moment, they continuously sing songs directed at female lovers without changing the pronouns, continuously accept marriage proposals from their female fans, and even when a fan was dubious and said “but we’re two girls” jiu said that it didn’t matter and that love is love, and they’ve said many times that it’s okay for female fans to be nervous around them (aka attracted to them). 

and not that it’s anyone’s business but the members themselves have dropped many hints over the years, from not specifying the gender of their ideal type

“Dreamcatcher Handong, “even if they’re not good-looking, a warm-hearted person is my ideal type.” “My idea type, erm... a warm-hearted person. A person not necessarily need to be good-looking, if they’re warm-hearted they’re a good person” ©

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Handong: For me, firstly, kind. It would be great if the person has a good personality and is tall.

Gahyeon: For me, because I’m still young I don’t have a definite ideal type. Just someone who smiles prettily and is fun. Ah, if the person has a good voice, it will be good. I like to talk on the phone. ©

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Jiu: I wish to have someone I can chat non-stop with, and who is also knowledgable and has a good character. I’ve never really thought about an ideal date, but what’s most important is that the atmosphere has to be comfortable!

Yoohyeon: My ideal type is someone who’s like Peter Pan, someone fun-loving and positive! My ideal date location would be Paris, France. It’s a really romantic city! Really look forward to spending time there with the one I love.

Gahyeon: I like someone with a beautiful smile, and someone who can really take care of me.   ©

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to lowkey admitting a same sex crush (she went to an all girls school as far as we know)

to being uh very straightforward about it

among other things 🐒 I’ve been into kpop for quite a lot of years now and I never experienced a group make this as comfortable as they do honestly. that’s why I say that it doesn’t matter if it is just fanservice, they’re still changing things for the better. but that being said, take your time getting to know them~ I think it’s better that you see it for yourself rather than have someone tell you really

[dukeofonions]

hi so i.found ur blog and its honestly like a breath of fresh air to look at so if its ok i might just fuckin,,vent here.

so. ik a lot of other people have been talking abt how pof was really straining to watch and i am.very late to the party but i need to talk abt it bcz holy fuck. when i first watched it i was in a way better place mwntally, also the general excitement of wow,content kinda overrode the headache and the eye hurty and the just. bad. but i was rewatching it recently because i was basing a fic off it and i just. i couldnt finish it because all of it was just so much and there was no fuckin warning?? so that was pog ig

next thing because i have. a lot of thoughts. ive been in the fandom for not-very-long, i joined in the middle of 2019 or something.and it just kinda sucks because im only still here for the fandom. i love the series but i can only watch dwit and compilations of logan/roman being sad so much before i can basically recite them off the top of my head. but i reallyreally love writing for the fandom!! it makes me so happy to do the writing, its just the fact that im not as invested with the series that makes me feel,,idk man guilty ig?? anyway thats too deep for a rant so im.a move on

god so tw me not liking post aa virgil and me talking abt toxic friends but hoooly fuck man. i just. pre aa virgil was fun because he was snarky and sarcastic and i could actually stand the nagst because his character made sense?? he was the 'bad guy' and he wasnt as woobified back then and he was honestly a solid vibe. but post aa virgil gives off the vibe of that one friend who fuckin, gets angry at you when you bring up any of your mental health issues and then blames their outburst on their mental health issuea and its like?? no i hate that character dynamic. people say bad things when the feel bad, sure, ik i have, but its the vibe of 'im gonna threaten you and then blame it on my mental health but if you so much as look at me wrong while ur having sensory overload or something i will smite you with the force of one thousand suns' and i am just.so tired. also ithink someone else said this but we should just call the series 'virgil sanders and the rest' because thats what it is now ksbdjqkbsq

also (all ofthese are my opinions btw and im not trying to say im rigbt im just tired honestly) the way. in pof the way patton's whole thing is 'you need empathy' is not funky fresh for both people with low empathy and high empathy 😎 bcz ppl with too much/too little empathy are always told theyre 'cold' or that theyre 'oversensitive', the whole 'there is an average amount of empathy and if u dont have that fuck you actually' is icky and bad and gross. i do think patton's character is really well done in the series but that episode jjust personally. ick.

and finally the moment uve not been waiting for bcz this is probably really tiring to read but the moment youve been waiting for-fwsa.just. why. its cute and stuff and i love nico. nico is a vibe. also bathroom man john is great. but shouldnt roman still be on shit terms with thomas?? like lk we're just gonna sweep away the whole 'i thought i wad ur hero' shizz? cool cool, glad to know romans arc still aint happening. also i get it, we needed to cement that virgil is a light side now. but like..did we?? actually bcz this is so long im gonna send in a second ask (im sososorry if this clogs up ur ask box if u tell me to stop i will i just. many thoughts) abt how even though i hate virgil, his arc should have been done. so differently. just gonna put like,, a mushroom emoji here so u can put the 2 asks together if u want 🍄

You’re always free to vent here! Sorry it took so long to respond but life has a cruel habit of getting in the way of things I need to do. 

So for starters, the POF problem should be talked about more so I can assure you that you’re not late to the party. It never really got the amount of attention it deserved so I am more than willing to bring that back up and trust me, you’re not alone. 

And again, you’re not alone in this either! Plenty of people still enjoy creating content for these characters. You don’t have to feel guilty for not finding the actual series interesting because honestly, I’m kinda losing interest too. But I still love these characters and I love that the fandom is still creating stories with them through different mediums.

Honestly I agree with just about everything you said about Virgil and I do eventually plan on tackling a lot of this in a future post. You know, if I ever force myself to just sit down and write the dang thing... 

Oh my gosh I’ve been waiting for someone to talk about this because that whole thing about empathy in POF really ticked me off because you’re absolutely right, not everyone is 100% empathetic, and some people can be empathetic to a point where it hurts themselves. Like I get what they were trying to say but it came across as, well, like you said. “If you’re don’t have this exact level of empathy then eff you I guess you’re a bad person.” Maybe that actually wasn’t their intention but it sure came across that way and maybe I’ll go into it a little more in another post because now that I’ve been reminded of it again I kinda wanna talk about it more. 

Okay yes, FWSA on its own is a good episode. Heck, it’s one of my favorites. It feels closer to a season one episode than ATHD that’s for sure. The problem with this episode isn’t the quality but the fact that it comes right after POF. And I’ve basically gone over this in my “Problem With Asides” post and how it affects both Roman and Virgil’s current arcs so I won’t go into much more detail here but just know that I pretty much agree with all of this. 

Also don’t worry about cluttering up my inbox. It’s here for people to share their thoughts and that’s exactly what you’re doing! Hope to see your part two soon mushroom anon! 

[the-rings-system]

(Tw ableism/commitment) hi! So in light of those cases you mentioned on Twitter I'm really scared to seek therapy. We really need it but our system is not even remotely close to the current idea therapists have abt systems we're mixed origin and our experiences more common to endogenic systems (past life memories, vast inner worlds, strong internal communication, but no switches etc.) Are noticeable to the point where I don't think I can hide them during therapy (1)

(2) On top of that we do experience what we believe are delusions due to our trauma and have been thinking me may have a personality or mood disorder we haven't been able to look into yet. We also are self diagnosed & due to fear of losing our rights don't want to receive any professional diagnoses. So our question is how do we find a therapist who will accept this 8 offer help while still staying safe? We're very scared of being committed and/or forced to take medications and want to stay safe.

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Hello friends, ableism is really scary, and we totally understand the fears that come with it.

The most important thing in having confidence navigating health systems safely is knowing your rights.

1. First thing off the bat, cases of involuntary commitment/hospitalization don’t typically occur in the therapy space (at least in our experience working with people who’ve been involuntarily hospitalized/peers who have been). It’s most common during crisis situations. In these incidences, a friend/neighbor/family member/ect calls the police or emergency medical services, which eventually leads to involuntary hospitalization for the person in crisis. Where we live (US) these two forces exist as transport to hospitals, and are not trained well/at all in de-escalation. We’ve literally talked to emergency medical services in our area about this and those are words from their own mouths.  -however, this means having a diagnosis and seeking therapy in itself won’t drastically increase your risk for involuntary hospitalization/commitment. -if you are white, you’re going to have a lot less issues with this, and might be able to work yourself out of involuntary hospitalization if someone calls the police on you. 2. When this does happen in therapy, this is due to the therapist/psychiatrist believing you are at immediate risk of harm to self or harm to others. With this, it’s a little more touch and go - most therapists need to hear the words directly from your mouths that you’re intending or thinking of harming yourself/others, but there’s some really ableist ones that will hear your have schizophrenia/DID and believe that you’re immediately at risk to yourself/others. Having a good interview process/consultation with the therapist will help mitigate risk in this area, which brings us to:

3. When selecting a therapist that can help you and wont give you an on-paper diagnosis when you don’t want one, as always, we recommend going into therapy knowing what you deserve and what you want from it, and knowing you can walk away at any time.  https://www.instagram.com/livedexperiencecounsellor/ On instagram has a LOT of good resources on what collaborative therapy should look like. We honestly recommend going through their entire page (or a good chunk of it) In the intake/consultation, it’s a really good thing for you to ask questions too, to determine if the therapist is a good match for you. (and also if they’re ableist)  https://www.instagram.com/p/CAPzAKtAG_S/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link  is a good starter resource for general questions, we also recommend from our experience: 1. Do you have experience in x area (eg. dissociation, DID, delusions, ect), do you feel qualified to treat x things? 2. Are you familiar with the severe stigma and violence against those with highly stigmatized disorders? What do you do in the therapy space to help mitigate that? 3. I’m not comfortable with an on-paper diagnosis yet, and you comfortable treating me without making a diagnosis that will be in my medical records? Good therapists will understand if you don’t want a medical, on-paper diagnosis for safety reasons. Every therapist we’ve seen (except the one that didn’t believe in DID) has understood this. Our first specialist was the one that brought this issue up with us in the first place, directly telling us about the organ donation waitlist ableism, and that unless we needed specific medications she wouldn’t diagnose us for our safety. There’s good therapists out there, honestly, and I encourage y’all to go find them ❤️ TLDR: Involuntary hospitalization/commitment typically occurs outside of therapy, and within therapy when you disclose intent to harm yourself/others. As long as you’re mindful of this, know your rights, and have good consultation sessions, you should be safe seeking therapy. (and I encourage you to!!) There’s plenty of therapists who know about ableist structures and will understand that you don’t want a diagnosis at this time. (Was gonna put in the tags, but will put here: involuntary commitment is scary as HELL I don't blame you at all for being afraid. But also, getting treatment means you're less likely to have crises in unsafe situations which result in external people making that police call leading to commitment. It's a difficult situation, stay strong.)

[voidvoyeur]

ok lads i’m be real for  a sec

ordinarily i wouldn’t feel the need to post this kind of thing online bc i usually rely on a support system in real life but idk ... i just wanted to and it gets to a relevant point irt experience on here and how you guys are Really Cool Okay i promise

the start of this year has been like Fucking Shit for me personally. if you don’t want to read the reasons why bc they deal with animal death and family loss then that’s cool like just scroll to the next paragraph. but basically at the end of january my family’s black labrador of fifteen years passed away which i was absolutely devastated by and i had the support i needed at the time, however on the 2nd of this month, my grandad also passed away and i just WAS NOT able to work through the grief properly bc of university work and pressure to meet deadlines, it wasn’t until the funeral & wake yesterday (which was actually rly nice) that i felt guilt-free of not doing work buuut bc of this prior mental compartmentalisation i was going thru to get work done,, i p much just emotionally crashed at a friend’s bday party in the evening i rly wanted to go to (luckily i didn’t ruin it and had friends who supported me throughout and we all wanted to leave early anyway but breaking down was the one thing i didn’t want to do) and like YEAH U GET IT

so with those losses, i want to be there for my fam as much as possible, and my family environment is the healthiest in terms of support i need, but i can’t mourn with them nor support them fully because this university year is my last. technically no one is allowed to request extended deadlines (more time to get final assignments done) bc then they can’t graduate this year -- if you get the extended deadlines you have no choice but to go to the graduation ceremony next year which would fuck me up a lot bc i want to be there with the friends who have been with me in my classes and who i’ve made warm 90s music video montage memories with from year 1

on top of that, i’m moving house and have to be packed and ready by saturday. this would usually be rly exciting if not for everything in my life being so AAAAA already and so any excitement is overridden by stress. left, right and centre i have people asking me what i want to  do after i graduate, what job i want, how i’m going to get it etc. and in any other context that isn’t my family asking it, i get hypersensitive and encouragement just translates as expectation and bc i have no answer (bc am literally just tryna get thru what’s happening NOW thanks mate) it immediately feels like i’m failing expectation so i just shut down. with everything going on i’ve just had to accept i may not get my ideal grade that i originally aimed for and lecturers said i could get, but that’s just how life works -- your priorities change and only now, after being able to process everything emotionally, have i been able to get the necessary motivation to even do the uni work i need to, as well as figuring out what i can get done and when. it’s just REALLY SHIT timing that all of this is happening at once, like you’re being kicked repeatedly while already on the floor

venting over now but my whole point with this post is that being on here has been the least stressful place for me. like i know everyone has their own issues but the fact that everyone is on here just kind of enjoying they’re thing and you’re being you on the dash is ideal respite from the amount of shit i’m trying to carry in me life. as well as this, the people i’ve spoken to, even if only briefly through IM, have been hugely helpful and has honestly meant a lot to me. talking with you guys is SO easy and fun and it means a profound amount to me that you’re taking the time out of your day to just have a laff or plot or make a starter & reply to a thread. you’ve all been such a positive influence and mood booster at times when i rly needed it.. like not once have i gotten into a rly bad depressive funk where i’m like THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST ME !! bc it just doesn’t feel that way w ppl on here being so kind and punk

bc of this, i just want to clarify as well that  if we DO talk and i’m suddenly absent for a couple days, and if it seems like i’m relying on you to write the starters, you’re mainly initiating conversation, i’m not sending memes (tbh i rly encourage ppl to send link to memes they’ve reblogged so i don’t miss them) etc. it’s not me being uninterested AT ALL nor am i putting on a front abt being excited for threads n stuff, it’s literally that w/ the amount of stuff going on sometimes i need to be away from my laptop, and rn it’s a lot  easier to have the energy to chat w/ someone for a bit or reply to an ooc post than to try and find the time and energy to write something Properly.

but yeah the tl;dr is life is the most stressful it’s ever been for me atm but you all have been proper quality, incredibly supportive altho u may be oblivious to how exactly and if i could i give u all a teletubbie hug i so would.. or at least have michael farm dbd points with u all and moonwalk across ur screens ..... @bhvr just let me party on a map with all my friends and mutuals pls. but for now all i can offer is pumpkin ferret ..... 

peace & love always !! ✌🧡

[carnifcrous]

i donated blood for the first time yesterday, and for those of you who dont know, ive said for a long time that i have a sort-of-phobia with things relating to my internal organs/liquids being taken out of my body/internal bleeding/just in general imagining things relating to whats underneath my skin disproprtionately. ive punched my best friend reflexively for touching the tendons on my wrist the wrong way and i pissed off my ex when we went to disneyworld the whole trip because i refused to hold hands with him the most/the entire time.

when i was actually there and really wanting to leave, i thought about that post i reblogged abt romanticizing ur life. i dont think its entirely what the post was aiming to do, but i tried to see everything in a more positive light. for starters, i know my bf will be proud of me for going through with it and maybe even think im cute for doing something like this knowing fully well it scares the shit out of me. i also tried thinking about how ive stuck needles in me so many times for my t shots and how i used to even take a safety pin in elementary school and stick my skin with it, so another needle just poking me somewhere else shouldnt be too much different. then i also thought abt how my other best friend had talked before about how pretty he thinks blood is, and when i saw all of what i had given in a sack, i was able to kind of appreciate that.

disclaimer: im not saying that ppl with (real?) phobias can just get over stuff with a little positive thinking. but for me PERSONALLY regarding this issue ive had for so long, it helped a little. more than anything, it made me notice just HOW MUCH of a negative schema i had created around all of these things. my thought process was completely different, and it was just this weird moment of clarity kind of when i felt this contrast of positive thinking and what kind of dread i would normally feel. im just really glad i had that experience

[unproduciblesmackdown]

for alphabet asks: STAGEDORKS

oh hell yeah….(thinks abt these bitches) wow i love Love…

S: What position do you sleep in? (NSFW) Favorite sex position? Favorite superhero(s)?

i try to sleep on my side usually but like, probably just on my back is more comfortable 

fuck if i know 

i’ve never been into superheroes but a zillion years ago when the first miles morales issues were coming out i bought like the first 7 and got a collection later and i coincidentally follow a nonzero number of superhero comics writing authors on twitter and i enjoy glimpses of riri williams content 

T: Are you good at tongue twisters? Did you believe in the Tooth Fairy? Tortillas or taco shells?

i’m neither that good or that bad at them 

i don’t especially remember tooth fairy times

hardshelled tacos all the way……

A: What is your alcoholic drink of choice? Favorite animal?

i don’t have any alcohol of choice b/c i don’t like alcohol so like, vodka + enough of some kind of fruit juice to make it endurable, and along that same line almost four yrs ago i had a couple mimosas and that was alright 

 i like Cats and i also like birds, especially in the corvids and parrots zone, and toucans, which aren’t parrots…i also had a long-running Cetaceans phase and i still like those like, orcas, manatees….glad to know the latter aren’t endangered anymore, my fifth grade teacher drew a manatee in pastels and gave it to me, thx ms. dennee

G: Favorite board game? Video game? Physical game?

i Enjoy scrabble and aggravation, which is this game w/ marbles which is like, 15% strategy and 85% luck so you can’t get too competitive 

 i haven’t played too many Video Games, especially not in recent years…i always enjoyed desktop games, like the point and click nancy drew games are my shit……later on like, portal 2 would be a great go-to game b/c usually i have a godawful hard time with Puzzles but the parameters of the puzzles in that game are so clear that i can actually enjoy it……i’m fond of amnesia tdd though i never finished it and the parameters of its puzzles are very much NOT clear. oh wait, then there’s all the shit we played via my brother’s Consoles Through The Years….the two of us taking a literal decade to beat donkey kong country….mario kart antics and driving the course backwards….we stan Galaga thanks to a namco collection and got to play it Arcade Style like a decade later at this convention lol….also on his ps4 we’d do Multiplayer stuff but really low stakes goofing around….ssbb but our real objective was just to desperately go after pokeballs and lose our shit if it was a meowth or invent really terrible maps named after pemberly (pemberdeath)….play uncharted and do terribly…….this lotr game he had was great too, like one map where we’d just ignore the Given Objective and get on horses and race around in a loop for like twenty minutes. that’s real gaming. 

 physical game idk lmao i never did Sports or anything……swinging on a swing. love that shit. kind of a Game ig. wait then would rollerskating be a game? BOWLING!!! i do love bowling and that’s definitely a game lmfaooooo

E: How do you like your eggs? Have any enemies?

i either fry them and put them on toast and then Burst The Yolk or i make an omellete, usually w/ cheese if i can manage it…..eggs benedict is so Fancy but delicious, but like yeah you have to make a whole hollandaise sauce so

i have my Haters List and people i think don’t deserve to be alive but i don’t like, have a mutual enemyship lmao

D: Favorite dinosaur? Donut topping? Dairy product?

i was a Big Into Dinosaurs kid…….s/o to the 3d dinosaur adventure computer game…..of course i liked raptors but my sister had velociraptors as her official fave so i was like, alright, dienonychus then. i also like ankylosaurs, and i think pachycephalosaurus is another Fave….a Probably-Herbivore with a raptorous build and headbutting like goats? good stuff. parasaurolophus is good too. just Being Loud and having a weird head

i like just frosting and sprinkles babey…..and just frosting is good too. like, chocolate’s classic….strawberry…….

ice creame…………………….

O: How do you eat Oreos?

voraciously, for starters. if i’m eating them Dry i will pull them apart, but i also do really like to dip them in milk.

R: Opinion on raisins? Random fact about yourself?

my raisins take hasn’t changed but another random fact about me hmm….i’m sure it’s not news to people since i mention it enough but i was a “really great at school in terms of getting good grades in everything, but also i largely hated school and always procrastinated hw and did bare minimum studying like, the morning of (or lunch before) any test and was the worst student by effort and Study Habits alone” and so i’m like oh Fuck yes re: solidarity and respect to all dropouts (fact within fact: the only academic accreditation i have is my SAT results i guess!), yet i also have That Much respect for people who Are good at school and put in that actual effort cuz i’m like god damn i could never do that

K: Who was the last person you kissed? (Platonically, romantically, however)

oh fun fact!!! i’m almost sure it was like, oh wait my god i was about to say 4-5 years ago but Actually it would’ve been….8? wait no. okay yes. so 7 years ago someone kissed me but that was a unilateral thing on their part so it doesn’t count. aaaand 8 or 9 years ago i kissed a friend on the cheek as PERFORMANCE ART!!!!! no lie this visiting artist (he was very nice and chill i liked him) came to our college and gave a talk and then there was this fun lil event in our Studio Art Space where people could write down ideas for vaguely creative things to do or make and then it was just a continuous cycle of putting your Suggestions into the box and drawing out other peoples, not even taking turns or anything you just went for it, and i got that prompt to kiss someone or whatever and one of a couple friends i had there was like, yeah that’s alright, i’ll take one for the Art team. platonic artistic and who could’ve known it was Prophetic as well?? stagedorks and winston billions energies

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hey here's smth that might blow ur mind a little bit: so Fiore said in 2x02 that by killing Jesse, SoK will kill Genesis (I didn't know that could happen, I always assumed it'd just escape) WHICH MEANS that when Fiore suggests to DeBlanc "the other option", he's suggesting having Genesis killed. and here's the kicker: DeBlanc will only accept that as a last resort. if Genesis isn't his baby, why is he so protective of it? you'd think he'd be glad to be free of it. idk might be smth to think abt

Alllllrighty…I’ve been thinking about this for over a week, and I think the time has come for me to attempt to put my thoughts into words…this might be a long one. 

For starters - YES…this does indeed change everything. Based on what Yusef -and McTavish - had said in past interviews, I had been under the impression that the angels still intended to get Genesis back - until watching the fateful second episode of Season 2′s premiere. 

This realization in itself was numbing…but it was what I had thought originally last summer, before reading any interviews. That Fiore and DeBlanc hired the Saint to kill Genesis was(is) one of the biggest holes in the angelship theory…until you think about it in the way you suggested.

Before I go on way too long, I want to quote @priscillajeanohare:

“Fiore is living out the plot of We Have to Talk about Kevin.”

This is apt. But it takes a while for me to get there…because I think it is a Rube Goldberg of circumstance that bring Fiore and DeBlanc to the Saint’s Hell Chamber. 

Here’s how I think it went:

Genesis busts out of the coffee can, begins to wreak mayhem on Earth. Fiore and DeBlanc become illegally corporeal to go and fetch Genesis without anyone noticing. 

The original plan is simple: Try the lullaby. If the lullaby doesn’t work, cut open Jesse and catch Genesis on its way out. 

Fiore and DeBlanc are twice thwarted by Cassidy. Fiore and DeBlanc agree to let Cassidy talk to Jesse.

Cassidy meets Fiore and DeBlanc in the motel. Fiore vehemently affirms Cassidy’s impression - that the plan is to cut Jesse open with a chainsaw. DeBlanc, thoughtfully, floats the idea of using the song again, to “lure” it out.

Cassidy leaves with their money. Fiore pulls out the angel phone, and says it time to “tell them what’s going on.” DeBlanc doesn’t think this would pan out well for them. Fiore agrees after consideration. 

Now comes a pivotal scene I contend happened off screen:

Sometime after Cassidy leaves, Fiore lets slip how little faith he has in the lullaby working. DeBlanc is floored, and wants Fiore to elaborate. Fiore admits he doesn’t think Genesis is particularly sentient or capable of connecting with them at all. DeBlanc is shocked and adamantly insists that Genesis does feel connected to them - that the lullaby proves it. Fiore drops it, but DeBlanc can tell he is not convinced. DeBlanc insists that Fiore let him try the song one more time before they kill Jesse. Fiore promises to try the song again in the face of DeBlanc’s vehemence, but is annoyed at DeBlanc. 

Which brings us to “The Big as Texas Burger” scene (your namesake): 

After the disagreement, DeBlanc is stunned and depressed. He misses Genesis, and he misses life with Fiore before coming to Earth. He is heartbroken at the realization of Fiore’s true thoughts. He is struggling with the idea that Fiore might be right, that he may love an entity incapable of feeling anything for him in response. And if he is deluded about Genesis, maybe he is deluded in his understanding of Fiore as well. This is what DeBlanc is wondering about while he is staring into the coffee can.

Meanwhile, Fiore is annoyed that DeBlanc made him promise not to kill Jesse until they had tried the song again. Fiore already sees Jesse as a flight risk, and doesn’t trust Cassidy…killing Jesse is the safest and quickest way to get Genesis back. DeBlanc didn’t used to have a problem with killing Jesse - but now he does, because he cannot stand the idea of Fiore not believing him. Now they have to try the song, and Fiore doesn’t understand why. He is staring at a burger commercial when the phone rings.

DeBlanc - who has just been worrying about the legitimacy of everything he loves - is panicked, thinking that Fiore is going to answer. Fiore started toward the phone with no such intention, already assuming it was the hotel phone. But upon seeing DeBlanc’s reaction - and realizing DeBlanc thought Fiore might actually betray him like that - deliberately hesitates to draw out DeBlanc’s panic. When he answers the hotel phone, and hears DeBlanc sighs in relief, Fiore becomes blatantly pissed. He doesn’t look at DeBlanc as he begins to leave… deciding that - as long as they’re spending an excessive amount of time on earth - he might as well get to know more about earthly pleasures. When asked by DeBlanc, he says he is hungry. 

DeBlanc is left bewildered and alone…this is first time we ever see the two of them separate. 

[Much more under Keep Reading…apologies, I had to list all the components out - tried to bold the most relevant parts.]

That night, things have - for the most part - cooled down. DeBlanc is reading the Bible, and Fiore is idly eating Cheetos. The phone rings, and Fiore answers. But it is the wrong phone.

The next day is spent practicing the phonecall. Fiore has to answer, because Fiore has angel hands. But Fiore also sucks at talking. They run out of time and have to confront Jesse directly. 

At the Flavor Station, they finally talk to the preacher. Jesse lets drop that he thinks Genesis is God…Fiore is disgusted, DeBlanc cynically unsurprised. DeBlanc sets the record straight, but refuses to tell Jesse anything more. Jesse uses Genesis. Rather appropriately, the first command Genesis issues on DeBlanc is “Tell me what it is.” (Possibly dual control here, between Jesse and Genesis.)

DeBlanc is forced to tell Jesse “It’s called Genesis.” Fiore is freaking out. DeBlanc keeps his head, and answers Jesse’s follow-up questions carefully, so as to not be further forced to reveal information that they don’t want Jesse to know. Enter the Seraph…noticed only by Fiore. 

Fiore tells DeBlanc about the seraph, grabs the coffee can, and heads out to confront her. They knock her down, and Jesse runs out to intervene.

This next part is important: The seraphim immediately begins to choke Jesse to death. DeBlanc intervenes and tries to stop her, and she begins choking him to death as well (albeit in his case an impermanent death.) At this moment, Fiore is separate from DeBlanc and Jesse - and is also in position of the Coffee Can. Fiore could have let the Seraphim kill Jesse here, and attempt to catch Genesis. But instead, Fiore goes out of his way to save Jesse’s life…because of the agreement he had made with DeBlanc. 

DeBlanc realizes this, and understands that - if they want to try the song again - they are running out of time. They have Jesse drive them to the Sundowner. In the motel room, Jesse asks how they get Genesis out. DeBlanc says “I sing to it.” Fiore, in a low and annoyed tone, says “Or…” and DeBlanc, with a surprised expression and a restrained voice, says - to Fiore - “I’ll sing to it, it will come.”

Fiore is still referring to just killing Jesse…he is frustrated because it would be so easy to do, and because he doesn’t understand why it is so important to DeBlanc that Fiore sees proof of their connection to Genesis.

Fiore takes out his frustrations on the other angel phone. 

The Seraph arrives, and the long Sundowner fight ensues…throughout the fight, Fiore had numerous opportunities to let Jesse die, and actively worked to prevent it. 

After the fight, Jesse criticizes them for letting Genesis get away. Fiore and DeBlanc have no answers for how or why it happened. Jesse says he is going to keep it. Fiore is incensed, and DeBlanc panicked. They follow Jesse out to the parking lot. DeBlanc puts his hands on Jesse in an attempt to pull him back, and Jesse snaps - using Genesis, he tell Fiore and DeBlanc to “Stay away from me.” From a parent’s perspective, this is a damaging thing to hear…

It is at this point Fiore brings up “The other option” - presumably because it seems like they can’t approach Jesse anymore. We see that DeBlanc angrily refuses to consider this. 

Fiore drops the subject, and agrees to wait. A couple days pass, and Fiore and DeBlanc are summoned to the church. The Preacher made a mistake, and damned an innocent kid to hell. The interaction between Jesse and DeBlanc in this scene seems very much like a child repenting, and being scolded by his parent…because it was like Genesis made a mistake

Jesse asks if its possible to bring somebody back from Hell. DeBlanc says no, Fiore says yes - and looks at DeBlanc in a challenging sort of way. This is Fiore continuing to express frustration at DeBlanc refusing to discuss “the other option” - but also perhaps Fiore being honest in the face of cleaning up after Genesis. Hell is a fate they can understand - unlike death, which is too human a concept to grasp…meaning it is clear to both DeBlanc and Fiore that Genesis sending a kid to Hell is by far the worst act it has caused.

DeBlanc doesn’t say anything definite, but implies that once Genesis is out of Jesse - they would deal with Eugene. 

They begin the song. DeBlanc looks a little confused while singing - Fiore stops, and insists that Jesse is resisting Genesis leaving. (I am not sure how he knows this, maybe angels can sense deceit? Hmm.) Regardless, DeBlanc talks Jesse out of his own sense of self-importance - and continues singing.

Genesis rushes out of Jesse, and into the domicile. Fiore scolds Genesis. DeBlanc is absolutely thrilled. They begin to pack up.

It becomes clear that Fiore and DeBlanc have no intention of braving Hell for Eugene. Jesse grabs DeBlanc’s arm in anger, much like DeBlanc did to him in the Sundowner parking lot, and Genesis responds. Destroying the domicile, and reentering Jesse. In that moment, you can see how utterly devastated DeBlanc is…he seems surprised when Jesse addresses him, as though he had forgotten Jesse was there. Fiore and DeBlanc pack up to leave, and DeBlanc grimly mentions “the other option” himself. To Jesse, DeBlanc says “It’s over Preacher, no more tryin.” 

No more trying, because there is no more domicile. The domicile, like the angel phone, is unique - unlike the rest of their items, it does not regenerate upon being lost. 

Okay. So now we have DeBlanc and Fiore buying tickets to Hell, in order to hire the Saint to kill their weird demongel entity child…

This is all the more heartbreaking, because it is happening after DeBlanc successfully proved that Genesis was connected to the two of them. But of course if he hadn’t tried to prove it, they might have gotten Genesis back. I don’t think either of them considered the possibility of the domicile being destroyed.

Fiore is pragmatic. Genesis is dangerous, and no one can control it. What’s important now is ensuring that he and DeBlanc aren’t separated as punishment. The only way Fiore can see this happening is if they hire the Saint, and stop Genesis on their own. (”It shows initiative,” Fiore says.) On a different level, Fiore might also feel genuinely responsible for Genesis’ actions and continued existence…because he treated Genesis like a child, and not a job - and missed the opportunity to retrieve it safely. Now “many more dead will follow” as the Saint begins his murderous search.

But DeBlanc really does not want to go. We always considered DeBlanc’s refusal to be based purely in his fear of Hell - but now, in retrospect, we can consider another possibility: 

Perhaps DeBlanc can’t face being the one to order Genesis’ death, even if he knows the death will be inevitably ordered. 

If this is true, DeBlanc’s last minute flip-flopping can make sense in an additional capacity, while playing into the episode’s theme of parents who consider killing their children…be it for the child’s well being (Sheriff Root & Eugene), or everyone else’s (Fiore & DeBlanc & Genesis.) 

In “Mumbai Sky Tower,” it doesn’t take a lot to talk Fiore into letting Genesis live. If you interpret Fiore having “friendship” (....right... that kind of friendship) with Cassidy and it reminding him of the intimacy and companionship he once had (damn them) with DeBlanc - then it is easy to imagine Fiore agreeing to call off the Saint, as killing Genesis was something DeBlanc never wanted to be responsible for. 

Still though, Fiore was disquieted by his conversation with Jesse…this conversation, like Jesse’s with DeBlanc in El Valero, seemed similarly parent-child-y. Jesse (and, from Fiore’s perspective, Genesis) showed a complete lack of understanding when it came to facing the gravity of his actions. He is disturbed enough by Jesse’s words to equate peace with knowing Genesis would be killed…in addition to dying himself. 

This is the We Have to Talk about Kevin part…the despair that seeps through when Fiore reaffirms that Genesis needs to die…it doesn’t make any sense unless Fiore cared about Genesis. 

I suppose you could argue that he was worried about Cassidy, or felt duplicitous - but I don’t think human death means a ton to Fiore…because he knows where mortals go. Celestial beings - like DeBlanc, Genesis, and himself - he doesn’t know what happens to them (”That’s the question, isn’t it?”). In not reversing the Saint’s contract, and requesting to be killed himself, he is placing all three of them in the shadowy unknown…where they might be together.

I don’t know how killing Genesis would work. I assumed Genesis transcended all dimensions - but who knows. I don’t think this is the plot they intended originally…but I also don’t think they’ll leave it entirely unexplored either. Hopefully hopefully hopefully they have just shelved the story of Genesis for the time being…if they ever introduce different parents, I am going to flip out. 

[willfainder-a]

how abt u do me black ;))

☆ / / MY OPINION ON.

character in general : i must admit i never watched jojo tho my friends keep telling me to enter in this hell, especially my best friend yet i never had this special connection with the anime / manga. BUT NOW that you explained to me about josuke & about how he acts & why he acts in this way I MAY START WATCHING IT ! listen up now, you made me curious like a raccoon & i wanna learn more about this story ‘cause damn boy it’s HELLA COOL & i live for cool things. i must admit i don’t know much about josuke if not what you told me about him & GOD i LOVE HIM. just by saying those few things about his power & about his personality MADE ME GO. i love this dude so much ??? & i would literally take a bullet for him & above all he looks like a funny guy & easy guy tho his appearace say otherwise. i just ??? love him ??? maybe it’s because you explained him so well & i was legit asking for more about him ??? just please share you thoughts on him with me & tell me more about this guy ‘cause i may fall for him too ( no wait i’m already falling for him, f uck ).how they play them : do i even have to say something about this ? no seriously do i ? listen up everybody grim is such a talented writer, the way she writes her muses is superb & it’s so easy for me to understand & to get along with ideas to continue our thread. she gave me so many ideas & she gave me a huge INSPIRATION for interactions with all her muses. she is so passionate about every single of her kids & i can’t but give her a giant clap for that ‘cause i know it’s difficult to share your love for every single of your muses like she does. honestly i admire that so much ! bless you grim & i look forward to see how you develop this character tho i know you are gonna do an amazing job i can bet my own heart & soul on that.

☆ / / DO I.

rp with them : it’s funny ‘cause we always talk about plotting & we always came out with ideas but we never posted that around ??? especially in a time like this when both of us are pretty busy with general life things & just everything ? so we basically plot a LOT but we didn’t roleplay that much, tho i’m planning on change it ! for example yesterday i finally wrote a starter & god I’M SO PUMPED FOR IT. it’s just i don’t know, it’s like we got so many ideas but at the same time we always stop yourselves from writing them. tho like i said before this is gonna change really soon ( now that i’m inspired b oi ho boi be ready my friend cuz hell is coming ).want to rp with them : SIGN ME THE FUCK UP. I’M ALWAYS READY FOR ROLEPLAY tho i’m slow af. i took hours to write a single reply because i’m a shitty person & i can’t write one liners or at least i try but they are short & i’m like : what if i put my chara’s thoughts here & lemme show what he’s doing right now, lemme...yhea it’s HELL. ( all i can do is short crack, i’m good at it & u know i am / war flashbacks about the “ fuck ��� thing ). i’m always ready to go for the roleplay but yhea i’m slow & i took hours & days to reply i’m shit gdi.

☆ / / WHAT IS MY.

overall opinion : i must admit that when i read your “ do me black “ i thought about a nasty thing. LISTEN i’m 21 gimme sum fuc. that being said GRIM, j ay, jaw dek, you are the perfect friend goal to me. i just can’t believe we didn’t meet before. that’s honestly strange af & i regret this, but ! look at us now. we are like best pals & god how many things we have seen in this short time. you made me suffer by watching cowboy bebop & I WAS LEGIT DONE when the show ended & THEN you made ma watch that FREE shit i still CRY about it. it’s so amazing because it’s not that much we started talking, probably it’s about 2 & 3 months ? i don’t remember but it’s like you always been here for me. it’s like i know you already & it’s incredible how you see when i’m tired, sad & when i try to hide it. i understand it, i can’t troll you my babe but that’s made me smile. seeing how much you understand me, how much u see inside me makes me so happy & the way you care about me, the way you give me advices to overcome hard times, this is, this is the only thing i really ask in a friendship & you are giving me exactly that. it’s not just memes & plots & being simple friends, it’s more & when i’m with you, when i talk to you i feel already well & good. we cried together, we shared our fears & we told each other about our painful things. it’s not easy for me telling people about my true self, i usually step away because i have this stupid trusting issues yet, with you i feel safe, i feel like i could tell you everything & my trust in you is so high my friend ! you helped me in a moment i thought i was gonna fail ? i thought i was gonna legit give up on everything & everyone, yet you stayed & you helped me discracting myself. i know you don’t wanna hear a thanks or things like that but seriously babe, thanks for being one of my best friends. thanks sweetie. thanks

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